Life is way too damn short, which I discovered the Hardaway, to not enjoy it and stop letting stupid, petty and immature things get in the way of living it to the fullest. I had been stuck, but no more. I am out of the room and in 2021 not 2016. The kids and I are going to live life to the fullest and do the best things in life. It is simple, I am going to make the most out of the rest of my life and will always hold on and cherish those wonderful memories of my life with Dawne, but it is time that I accept her death, move forward, embrace life and start enjoying it. I am going to be happy, period.
Letting go of the past and fear of a life without Dawne, I am doing those things that make me happy and I enjoy and love doing. I no longer want to be a part of the drama triangle, being the villain doesn't make me happy, being the victim doesn't provide any joy and trying to be the hero is a recipe for misery and not fun. I am committed to having fun and will not let anyone bring the misery, anymore. Being a complete and total smartass doesn't always work and it is not always fun. Laughter is great for the soul, but laughter at someone else's expense is wrong and hurtful to the other and not enjoyable.
Talked with K.U. for the first time since June of last year. Discussed a whole range of family and kid related stuff and a couple other things. I apologized to her for how I mistreated and mislead her. I am happy that she is engaged and found hers. T ..
The normal Feb blues leave with the start of March. Coming up next Monday it will be 4 years since I closed on 562 Heather Ridge Manor CT. Seems like yesterday. Still have lots of boxes from that, which I am getting too. Spring when life comes out of ..
Lately, I have been having dreams with Dawne making an appearance in them, which for the better part of four years, she wasn't present in any, but three. Two were her walking away at the end, never seeing her, just a silhouette, which obviously was m ..
Baby conversation, getting a puppy instead. That's what happened with Dawne, she would bring it up and a few days or week later, we got a new puppy. Kind of funny. I'm repeating history. I know why. Choices. I've made some bad ones, not making a deci ..
I used to say, I'm striving to be happy, healthy and whole, I am emotionally and mentally healthy, but.. I am happy and whole. Calm, at peace and have found the inner harmony I wanted. Being stress and drama free is such a great sensation, which tran ..