Not silly, not silly at all. One week ago, you were canceling your trip, I ruined it and you didn’t want to live anymore. None of it makes sense and is all over the place. It was all deceit, untrue and a mindfuck game of yours or it wasn’t, but either way, it is frightening. How you are all over the place, how you are so wishy washy, how easily you say you want to die or you’re killing yourself or wanting to eat a bullet, to just calling this silliness. You frighten and scare me, you do and it is not silliness. You swing from one second to another. It is frightening, disturbing and alarming. It isn’t silly. You have provided good reasons to be frightened and fearful of you and your temper.